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500th entry!!!

2004-08-20 - 2:49 p.m.


I have reached entry number


Isnt that exciting???

So, to commemorate such a big event, I went through and found some of my favourite quotes from previous entries. The entry names are in brackets.

You wanna know what I'm constantly thinking bout when I aint listening Ang? Its that I'm somewhere where its snowing, I'm with (insert whatever name you think will fit here) and he is standing behind me with his arms wrapped around my waist and his head on my shoulder. This fantasy is either paused at just that or I then turn around, put my arms on his shoulders and he looks down at me (of course he is at least 6 inches taller than me seeing I am a short ass) with this little smile on his face.
[She gave you everything she had]

99% of the world is bad. But sometimes you need to step out of the mysery of reality and look at that 1% of happiness
[open your eyes, look up to the skies and seee…]

Little things in life that I love:
*The foam on top of cappacinos
*When a rain drop hits you dead on the nose
*Total pour downs on a hot day when you can stand in the rain
*Sleeping in during winter
*A mug of hot milo
*Old feel good songs
*Curling up on a couch
*Seeing someone make an ass of themselves
*Shopping when I have money
*French toast
*The feeling when you lose your stomach on a rollercoaster
*The feeling too much whiiped cream leaves on the roof of ur mouth
[open your eyes, look up to the skies and seee…]

"Life size cardboard cutout of her fav movie star = $60. Shipping cost = $14. Watching her lick the ink off the picture and poison herself = PRICELESS"

"Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, I think about the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport. General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed but I don't see that. Seems to me that love is everywhere. Often its not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but its always there. Fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from people on board were messages of hate or revenge, they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love, actually is all around."
[love actually is all around]

Tender Moments

The sensual tingling of their cooling touch

Icy diamonds against my heated body more than I can bare

Their singing sounds lingering in the night

Harmonious bells filling the air

A soothing breeze caresses my burning heart

Tender moments made whole with a warming kiss

The naked moon illuminating my heart at peace

Darkness containing our endless bliss

Falling purity cleansing our being

Silver diamonds reflecting the passion in your soul

Like glistening stars in the night's sky

Transparent love making us whole
[Tender Moments]

And I'm so terrified of no one else but me,

I'm here all the time I won't go away,

Yeah it's me, yeah I can't get myself to go away,

Hey it's me and I can't get myself to go away,

Oh God I shouldn't feel this way

I've never been a massive follower of the "pretty boys". I melt over a guy who is tall, dark hair, tortured and soulfull dark eyes, long black coat, keeps to himself..... The whole brooding look..... droooool.....
[I’m going to marry a serial killer]

Why cant I have teenage ignorance? Why do I have to see other sides to the story? Why cant I be self consumed without the guilty aftertaste???
[fuck guilt. Ruins everything]

lol. I think I will amuse everyone with the story of how I found out Jake's name. This was before I was obsessed with him, and knew him only as the sexy dude who caught my bus. Anyways, one day last year during agriculture, I was on my way down to the ag plot with Vog and Megan. For some unknown reason, Megan knows basically everyone in the entire school, and seeing as no one else knew who he was, I decided to ask her. This is how the conversation went.
Me:"Hey Megan, you know basically everyone in the entire school right?"
Me:"Well, there's this dude in year 11 or 12, I dont know which, who catches my bus and I wanted to know what his name was."
Megan:"Ok. Describe him to me, and I'll see if I can tell you who it is"
Me:"Okies. ummmm.... He's tall, with dark brown hair, a mysterious look and totally sexy" **Eyes glaze over**
Megan:"Oh you mean Jacob Griffith! You dont like him do you, because he's going out with Sally Gibson"
Me**Snaps back to reality with loud crash**"Oh... Err... No! Of course not! I just think he's hot." **Sighs in disappointment**
[Why wont 10:30pm just come already]

Ok, now for the paragraph for which all those italicky bits were added. After school today, I was walking towards my locker along the path where Calli's and Abi's lockers are, when I see Jake coming towards me from the other direction. Its funny, how there were 600 people running around, trying to leave school as quickly as possible, yet none of them were anywhere near me and Jake. Like in the movies. Although, unfortunatley unlike the movies, I'm not some drop dead gorgeous babe with long, silky hair billowing behind me and the most seductive look on my face. So, in a panic at what to do, I look at my feet because I was too scared to look at him. Just before we pass each other, I give in to temptation and I look up and for a second that 'seemed to last for an eternity' we made eye contact. Ah, I nearly melted. I had to control myself from latching onto him like some beggar. His eyes have this power that just make me freeze like a rabbit caught in the headlights of an oncoming truck. Oh, you have to see his arms. He sits there, and you can see the veins in his arms and hands, showing just how strong he must be. When I saw those arms with their muscles and veins, I just yearned to have them around me. His warmth. He would be so warm and protective to hug. I would feel so safe whenever I had his arms around me, as if nothing in the world could harm me. Every time Dave hugs me, or I measure the size of my hand against his, I wish it was Jake I was doing that to. I believe that hugging Jake would be similar to hugging Dave, except he would be skinnier. I wonder if Sally realises just how lucky she is. She is such a bitch to him though. She always plays hard to get. Oh he is just so divine. Absolute heaven. But he will never be mine.
[just touch me again]

Yes. Let your hormones run wild and free. Let them dance naked in the street. Let them go and get pissed and root every boy in sight. Yes.
[HORMONES they can be a good thing]

Anyways, After that we went out to the Spur for dinner. As we were walking through the car park to take Matt to Krispy Kreme, a car came towards us at an alarming rate. Im like "Hmmm.... the back of that car looks like Jake's...... Hmmm...... The front of that car looks like Jake's..... OMG! That number plate is JAKE'S!!!!! ARRGH!!!" It was sooooo freaky!!!! Rach, Matt and I almost got run over by Jake!!!! On my birthday!!!! When I was at my prettiest!!! I hope he noticed me and recognised me..... Fingers crossed. Dinner was the best. I had a steak with chips and when my meal was brought, it was brought by this cute guy called Rhys that I had been eyeing for the previous 45min. When he had put my steak down and walked away, I say in a mock concerned voice to Rach "Where's my sauce?" Cuz I asked for tomato sauce. Suddenly, Rhys appears and asks who wanted the sauce and I raise my hand to show it was me and he put the sauce down while looking at me and so of course when he leaves I have a giggling fit with Rach and Aunty Violet. During dessert, they brought me my cake with a candle in it and the waiters did that embarressing chant for my birthday. Rhys participated.
[my b’day, pardy, 1st day back and lion king]

I just had dinner. Mainly chicken. Aunty Violet makes the worst salads. I guess it is the fact that I heard her saying to mum that the dried tomatos in some sort of dressing that we have had for over two weeks were still ok. "Even if they were mouldy, I would still eat them. I just pick the mould off" Eeeeew!!!! Mould is natures way of saying DONT EAT THIS
[FINISHED! *que victory dance*]

It was so funny today. Me and Calli went shopping and as we were shopping we saw a little 2 year old kid wearing a spiderman costume and as we walk past, i turn around, look him up and down and say to Calli, "nup. not as good as the one at wonderland". lol.
[the earth, my bum and other big round things]

lol. I love this stuff. Its classic.

I cant believe it. Some teacher is going to kick me off in the middle of my 500th entry!

I'm at school bludging by the way. Had my french exam this morning and failed miserably. Couldnt get home so I stayed at school and spent several hours setting this up. Its 3:05pm.

I havent read any of Circle of friends today.

sing - scream

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