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| current | archives | profile | notes | gbook | host No, I can't forget this evening With your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way the story goes You always smile, But in your eyes, your sorrow shows Yes it shows No, I can't forget tommorrow When I think of all my sorrow And I had you there, but then I let you go And now its only fair that I should let you know What you should know I can't live If living is without you I can't live I can't give anymore I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore Well I can't forget this evening With your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way the story goes You always smile, but in your eyes, your sorrow shows Yes it shows I can't live If living is without you I can't live I can't give anymore I can't live If living is without you I can't live I can't give anymore ...If living is without you... This is how I feel if you change it from being a love song. I mean, I loved Mr Ockenden, but in an inexplainable way. I didnt love him like a brother, or a friend, or even a lover, I just loved him. I know it is going to take me a while to get over this. Every part of me isnt coping. Emotionally, mentally, physically. I keep crying, shaking, I havent stopped thinking about him since the moment I found out on Thursday. I dont want to go to school on Monday, but I might just to find out the school's plan for his funeral. I feel so bad. I cant cope. Too much death. And this one was like a tidal wave. First there's little ones, then they get stronger, then there's the big one that knocks you off your feet. I look like totall shit. I havent had a shower since Wednesday night. I will tomorrow seeing I'm going to see Delta. When I read his Death notice in the paper today, I couldnt control myself. I just cant cope. He meant so much to me. Please visit me and tell me it will be ok Ocko. Please. I need closure. I dont know how I will handle the funeral. Mum said that because he was in a car crash they probably wont have an open coffin. I dont think I'd be able to handle seeing him dead. - - 2008-05-06
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